Just a quick up-date since I don't have time to do a real post. Sabrina is fine. Her blood count is fine and she does not have strep throat. After some detective work and talks with Sabrina (that were like pulling teeth), she has confessed to getting sick "on-purpose" while she is at daycare so that mommy has to come and pick her up. We are making strides in explaining to her why this is not acceptable behavior and the bad effects it has on her body and how insanely unhealthy it is for her. She is starting to see the light and had an OK day today. She will be fine and I am glad this is something that we can work with her on and fix and that there isn't a low blood count, virus or strep throat. I would have never have seen this one coming.........holy cow. How do they learn to be deceptive so early. I wish I could hide her from any outside, bad influences for the rest of her life, but I know that that doesn't even work in fairy tales. It definitely won't work in Burlington.

Realizations

This is going to be a hard post for me. Mainly because I am not a great blogger in the traditional sense. I post pictures of fun events, MY KIDS, my husband, family and anything else that may have my attention at the time (TWILIGHT). I then type in short, little quirky comments and call it a day. In my mind, "real" bloggers are eloquent, interesting and very well written people who have something important, interesting or funny to say. It is intimidating for me to try and put my thoughts on the screen and meet all the previously mentioned requirements, but here it goes.


The past few weeks have been very hectic and not a lot of fun. They have been filled with ear infections; simple, but annoying medical procedures; major concern over friends and family's health problems; a death in the family; minor family drama and last but not least a trip to the pediatrician. We needed to find out why Sabrina's throat has been (or hasn't been) hurting over the last couple of weeks and why she is so dang tired all the time. They couldn't tell us, but took a swab of her throat to test for Strep and sent us to have blood drawn to make sure she isn't anemic. I haven't ever taken a 5 year old to have blood drawn before, but it is not fun. She tried so hard to be brave. It took over three minutes to fill those two little vials with my Angel's blood. The tech had to keep "wiggling" the needle to try and make the vial fill faster and it didn't work. And through it all my princess was such a little trooper. I on the other hand almost passed out from just watching, TWICE! So, after those sadistic people where done torturing my daughter and we were leaving the office, she told me (with that look that every mommy knows in her eyes) that she didn't feel good. We ran to the bathroom and she puked her guts up. And that was when it hit me. As I was standing over my daughter, holding back her hair. While I was totally freaking out, as her little sweet hands reached out in front of her to grip that germ ridden public toilet to keep her balance. And lastly as I wiped the vomit and sweat from her face, I realized that this was the first time since she was 6 months old that she has had to endure any medical procedure other than the every day vaccine. HOW LUCKY ARE WE?!?!? To have such healthy happy children that have only had to go to the doctors for the every day runny nose or yearly check-up!! All the things that have been stressing me out, that I have been complaining about and that have been keeping me up at night, all seemed so petty and unimportant. WE. ARE. BLESSED. I have had the two, running, screaming, tantrum throwing, laughing, funny proofs of how lucky we are under my nose the whole time. I am going to TRY and remember this feeling the next time my neck starts to get tight, my worry gene kicks in and I start to stress out. Maybe I should print out a couple copies of this to keep at my desk, in the car, in my purse, on the fridge....I stress a lot, but I am going to try and turn over a new stress, guilt and worry free leaf!